so where do I start? We are crazy!! Yep Crazy! After all we have been through in the last several years, we are up for one more adventure! One more journey! God has laid it on our heart to have more children and this is how we feel we should go for it!

Well let me give you a little back ground in our story! My Bo and I had been together for 10 years when we got married. We were 28 years old. We knew right away we wanted start a family! We began working at it! 6 months later ( what seemed like eternity) I was pregnant with our first little miracle! I had a great pregnancy and worked up until I delivered goose. She came a bit early because I had pre eclampsia and I was induced. That went well also. I loved being pregnant and I loved pushing her out. It was such and amazing awesome experience!
After I delivered our little 4 lb 14 oz goose at 35weeks and 5 days, I bled and my body would not stop. I was rushed down to the operating room to be thoroughly checked out. The swept me away and left the tiny goose with my Bo and they told him to feed her. He was like WHAT?? I can't imagine the fear he had. Well, I received so much blood and blood products! They tried everything. I almost died! God saved me through the work of these men and women! They finally told me that I would have to have a hysterectomy! I was so out of it! It was all so surreal. I remember waking up in the ICU and asking if they took my uterus! I was so upset and felt like I had just lost a dream and so much more. I then asked about our goose. Well I say I asked but I had to write everything down because I was intubated and on a ventilator.  Goose was in the NICU simply because they needed to put her somewhere to be cared for while I was in ICU! My Bo had been going back and forth between the units. I can't imagine how hard this was for him. We had no family around for support. However, my Bo's mom did fly down to help us out and to support us both through it all. She is such a blessing!
I pulled through by the love of God! I was very sick with loss of blood and my continued high blood pressure.  Our God is amazing! Even though I lost my womb, I was able to keep my ovaries! We could have more biological babies. I just wouldn't be able to carry. This was a huge loss! I am not sure people really understood the loss I was dealing with and I actually continue to deal with. God has helped me through this!
We know right away that we wanted more babies. We got started right away on researching and figuring out how we would go about adding to our family! I really think with caring for a newborn and staying busy looking into gestational surrogacy, God pulled me through. I could have easily gone through a huge depression but I was spared from that. Looking back, I do feel like I had some post par tum depression but it was definitely curved by my staying busy!
We found the perfect surrogate for us and next thing you know on Father's day we were able to put two of our little babies into our beautiful surrogate. About a year after our goose was born, our surrogate was pregnant with our zippy!  The pregnancy went on without anything major.  Our zippy was born 10 months later at a whopping 9 lbs 3 ozs. He was such a blessing and the entire journey was amazing! What a gift someone can give! Forever we are blessed by what our surrogate did for us!
We had moved cross country and we were busy with our little family! We had no money to start another journey right away! Then we decided to take the plunge when our little zippy was 3! We tried for three years with different people offering to be our surrogate and then we went through an agency again! We found a great surrogate after much hunting and failed matches. Her and her family are great! We had a miscarriage with our first journey with this surrogate. At 8 weeks we lost our little one. heart ache but we were determined to try again and it is only by the grace of God that we found the finances (which we will be paying on FOREVER) :0)
Our 2nd journey with this surrogate, we made it into the second trimester and we thought we were in the clear when we lost the baby's heartrate! Our surrogate had to go through labor and deliver our little 18 week old baby girl! It was one of the worst experiences either of us have ever gone through! Our surrogate was devastated as well as we were. Such heartache all the way around! I hope to never experience anything like that again!  However, I am just happy I know who our creator is. I love the song that goes something like, "He gives and takes away. He gives and takes away. My heart will choose to say Lord blessed be your name!" It is so true. God gave me this baby and He also chose to take her away. He is teaching me! Shaping me!  I trust Him! And I know one day we will get to meet our littlest precious girl! I don't know why God chose to do this but I am sure it is for my best.
So we have met a new surrogate and have chosen to go on one final journey with her! She is amazing and her family is wonderful! We clicked! God has brought us together and we are so happy about this!
Follow us on our journey together as we try to build our family!